We sorted things out, like champs. Made sense of a lot of stuff through insightful chatting and healthy, kind honesty. There's the most beautiful child in the picture, and it's just good stuff all around.
The best thing about the whole damn affair was that I was honing in on a realization about my musicality and such that I just didn't have the confidence and sheer creative mojo to ever get anywhere, musically at least. It finally lead to my seeing that this lack of confidence has been an occasional problem ever since I lost my connection to God. Then I saw that the only solution was to get that connection back.
Now, I'm not really very Christian, I uphold the morals and such but my guru isn't the Christ, and I'm not particularly comfortable in all but the rarest few Christian churches, none of which are in my area. I've decided to keep my faith a closely guarded secret, but I do consider myself multi-religious and, finally seeing that God loves me and really is the answer to my problems, and will move heaven and earth for me, it's brings me to a really beautiful spiritual place. Without my emotional issues, I can focus myself on what I really want to do; raise a beautiful son, study and make music, and write. And the material I've been working on since then shows a ton of promise.
Love is the Answer, Love the highest law. Amen.