Writers have a spiritual connection with writing, if they do good fiction and are worth their weight in salt. I don't really have a spiritual connection like it with music, I love performance and i love performing well, which, other than Covid, is the main reason i DON"t perform; I'm just not good enough yet I reckon. And do I really wanna be? Rather do I want to put that work in? Not right now, anyway.
I've been working on a novel for 17 years and bashing my brains against a wall with it. I had this great plotline, and cool characters and I just couldn't make it work out because, at the end of the day, telling a great damn story and telling it well was on the back burner and what was on the front burner was using the story as a vehicle to write an amazing philosophy that ultimately fell flat, Which meant that it all fell flat, no matter how much I worked on the damnable thing.
So I got my closure on all that jazz. Now, the story is naked, and I'm rewriting it and it's super inspiring. That spirituality is back in full swing and I'm partying without alcohol or drugs, lol ,just having a fun time with my buddy Theodore, who is really kind and funny and adorable-but his true nature is that he's a fucking asshole! Which is, of course, hilarious!
I'm so done with music it's ridiculous. But I have a new creative idea. MY new creative idea is to use Twitch.tv to hang out while I work with people online and be part of something while I"m just alone at my place, lol. Cool shite.
Tomorrow (hopefully) in the mail comes my brilliant tool for quitting smoking: https://smile.amazon.com/gp/product/B086M331JS/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_asin_title_o00_s00?ie=UTF8&psc=1
I'm hanging out with a buddy and having a blast. He's reading my poetry into a microphone and he's doing such a terrible job of it that it's hilarious and kills my soul too. Good shite.
Good shite, good night. Cheers.